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So for the first time all year, I managed to come first in a local fencing comp. Ok, to be fair it was just the third national trials of the year, and a few guys didn't show due to other commitments or injury and the like. But I'd like to think that I did an ok job with the guys who did show up.

Training has been going better of late with my "extra" work with a coach who actually knows what he's doing. And a slightly more relaxed outlook.

Ig complained that my blog is largely a training diary. And while I make no apologies for it, given that I started it as a way to track my sporting travails abroad and at home, I guess I will try to write some stuff that does not pertain solely to sports from time to time.

I've been doing a fair bit of reading of late of vaguely philosophical, spiritual stuff from a range of writers. And the underlying thread that jumps out at me is the fact that, well, nothing really matters.

I know that sounds like a slow-rock song from the '80s, but the theory behind it is that everything, being the material world, possessions, stress, work pressure, the rat-race...none of it really matters, because at the end of the day, everything is made up of the same energy that makes up the universe, and we and what we perceive are just different manifestations of that energy. And in the end, we all return to that energy no matter what we do, think, say, have done to us.

Amazingly, this realisation does not make me want to crawl up my own arse or into a cave or whatever and stop living life as I know it. Because the world will continue to go on around us and I hear caves are smelly. What does seem clearer is that there is little or no need to fret, stress, worry, anguish or feel angsty in any way as we go about our daily business because NOTHING really matter.

We should do things that make us and the other lifeforms around us that we care about happy. A kind word, nice gesture, hard work, smile, whatever makes it better...because it makes us feel better and happier as we wind our way through this current existence. And if we can help more people understand this, maybe there will be nicer vibes and less shit in the world as a whole. Which would make me happier. So that's what this post is about.

To all of you who actually read this, thank you (that means u M). Be well.

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